8 a.m. (Meal #1): multigrain blueberry pancakes, eggs, turkey bacon, coffee
11 a.m. (Meal #2, heavy snack): none
2 p.m. (Meal #3): tomato basil soup
5 p.m. (Meal #4, light snack): none
7 p.m. (Meal #5): grilled chicken on multigrain wrap with spinach
9 p.m. (Meal #6, light snack): none
It’s not easy being invisible.
8 a.m. (Meal #1): breakfast taco with eggs and bacon, coffee, orange juice
11 a.m. (Meal #2, heavy snack): none
2 p.m. (Meal #3): green beans, mac and cheese, potato salad, turkey, sweet potatos, slice of butter pecan cake
5 p.m. (Meal #4, light snack): none
7 p.m. (Meal #5): chicken, rice
9 p.m. (Meal #6, light snack): none
This has to be my best find yet. Tonight I picked up an in season Kenneth Cole coat, currently selling for $260 at Lord & Taylor for $30! Thanks Ross!
8 a.m. (Meal #1): coffee, granola
11 a.m. (Meal #2, heavy snack): mixed fruit
2 p.m. (Meal #3): chicken sandwich with mozzerella and artichoke
5 p.m. (Meal #4, light snack): mixed fruit
7 p.m. (Meal #5): grilled chicken on multigrain wrap with spinach
9 p.m. (Meal #6, light snack): nonfat pudding
Do they ever work? Sometimes I wonder if I’m chasing something that doesn’t exist.
My goal for this year was to not date. Then I met fb2 and I decided to take a chance…yet again. I wish I’d just stuck to it. I know experience is a gain and does allow you to prepare for the next experience in life, but all I seem to be learning is how to be angry and how untrustworthy men are. I can’t see that helping me find someone new. I guess that’s supposed to help me know a good one when I see one, but fb2 was a good one, and he turned out like all the rest. Nine months of greatness ended by alot of nothing.
Some say that men do that when they are trying to identify whether they want to commit or if they aren’t on the same page. Bullshit. If a 30 something doesn’t know how to match that up when the relationship begins, does it really take 11 months to figure it out?
There has been no official end, but I am done. I can’t see being with someone who is okay with me buying a plane ticket then changing the relationship. How can I trust that? We’ve gone from talking every day to nothing. I called him on Wednesday and got no response. Maybe there is an explanation. But all I see is the same old disappearing act I’ve seen before. I’m sure he’ll reappear at some point. They all do, but I can’t see moving forward.
I don’t need a whole lot, but I do need consistency and interest. The lack of both in the past few weeks read to me as him seeing someone else. I just can’t see being that busy in this technological age that you can’t respond to a text or a call. I can only read that as I’m not interested anymore. And not being upfront enough to say when you’re changing the game plan…to leave me hanging, is not something I can respect.
In 2010, I’m going back to accepting that I am not meant to have a relationship in this life. I can no longer invest myself in men who don’t invest in me….and since there is no way to tell the difference, I’m okay with focusing on other things.
8 a.m. (Meal #1): oatmeal, non-fat chai tea latte
11 a.m. (Meal #2, heavy snack): banana, mixed nuts
2 p.m. (Meal #3): orange chicken, carrots, peas, brown rice
5 p.m. (Meal #4, light snack): dried fruit
7 p.m. (Meal #5): mixed veggies, potato salad, baked beans
9 p.m. (Meal #6, light snack): multigrain crackers and nonfat cheese
8 a.m. (Meal #1): raisin bran, non-fat milk
11 a.m. (Meal #2, heavy snack): none
2 p.m. (Meal #3): calamari, shrimp, seafood fondue and chips
5 p.m. (Meal #4, light snack): none
7 p.m. (Meal #5): chicken and spinach in whole grain wrap
9 p.m. (Meal #6, light snack): sugar free pudding
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