Archive for April 2009

day 5

April 30, 2009

Notice how I’m getting better? ūüôā¬† I’ve definitely reduced my planned intake.¬†¬†Tomorrow¬†the folks at work are planning a big breakfast blow out with taquitos, Chick-fil-a minis, donuts, *sigh* you name it in bad food.¬† I am planning to arm myself!¬† (Update:¬† I was strong!¬† I didn’t eat anything and really wasn’t interested….although those Chick-fil-a mini’s looked good!)

8 a.m.  (Meal #1): 1 cup of granola, 2 cups 1% milk

11 a.m. (Meal #2, heavy snack):  banana, 1/2 cup oatmeal 

2 p.m. (Meal #3): broccoli soup, saltines (7)

5 p.m. (Meal #4, light snack): (didn’t eat, I was behind schedule today.)

7 p.m. (Meal #5): vegetarian burger patty, wilted spinach, orange juice

9 p.m. (Light Snack): 1 cup 1% milk, granola (I should’ve eaten fruit or vegetables, but I didn’t have a plan and I’m a little off tonight with my timing and eating.¬† In fact, I need to plan for tomorrow.)


programming note

April 30, 2009

If you’re following my eating, note that I’m updating it as I eat to ultimately end up with an accurate record of what I’m eating each day.¬† I’m using my blog as my food journal.

I will also add that I am drinking lots of water.¬† I was always water fan so this hasn’t been a real change for me.

love in pandemic times

April 30, 2009

Ok, maybe not, but I definitely have no danger of catching swine flu with my love life.

FB2 is still hanging in there.¬† Last week we had the ‘conversation’.¬† It pretty much settled with both of us expressing our ‘like’ for each other and taking a wait and see approach on how things go when we meet…whenever that is.¬† I guess you can sense from my comments that I’m not feeling the commitment.¬† To be fair, I agree with where we are, however, it doesn’t make me feel any better to still be single.¬† On a positive note, he didn’t turn tail and run after I brought up the question, “What are we doing?”¬†¬† He faced the question head on.¬† So yay for not scaring him off, lol; but boo because we are at month 3 and while he is definitely planning to visit me this summer, the future is still clearly in the single category.

What does a girl have to do to find love?¬† Hell if I know.¬† I sure wish I could find it.¬† It’s a little old being old and still not having some one think you’re great enough to just love.

Speaking of love, R. has resurfaced.¬† Why I don’t know, but he called me about 2 weeks ago asking how I was doing and if I could meet him for drinks.¬† I said sure, so we met at restaurant in my neighborhood and he shared that I was the one for him, blah blah blah.¬† Yeah.¬† Well, that’s nice, I am thinking, but where’s the action behind all of those great feelings.¬† Well, 2 weeks later, I’m still where I’ve been with him all along, ‘loved’, but alone.¬† He’s firmly in friend category.¬† I have had enough time to process and despite our attraction, despite his feelings, we’ll never be anything.¬† He and I are in two different places mentally and value wise and while I don’t want to be alone, he just isn’t what I’m looking to have in my life.

On a funny note, there was a brief new friend, but he allowed his crazy to show TOO early, lol.¬† After one conversation, my inbox was flooded with emails from him.¬† To add to it, I posted a status update showing frustration about something and he thought it was him and removed himself as a friend, lol.¬† I told him it wasn’t about him when I asked what happened and he responds by saying “We live around the corner from each other, but we don’t see each other so I figured why bother.”¬† Uh, dude, I live across the COUNTRY from you.¬† You apparently have turned off more than just me lately, lol.¬† THEN he goes on to apologize and ask to be added back.¬† Uh, no.

Yeah, I’m convinced that I am just too normal for today’s man.¬† I’m single, no children, disease free, securely employed, financially stable, with common sense.¬† NOBODY wants that these days, lol.¬† I’m living proof!

day 4

April 29, 2009

I’m not even sure how I got to day 4.¬† Time is flying.

8 a.m.¬† (Meal #1):¬†1/2 cup oatmeal, banana, strawberries (I’ve been eating a 1/2 cup of oatmeal thinking I was eating 2 cups.¬† I just read the packaging.¬† lol)

11 a.m. (Meal #2, heavy snack):  grapes

2 p.m. (Meal #3): tomato soup, saltines (7), wilted spinach

5 p.m. (Meal #4, light snack): almonds

7 p.m. (Meal #5): vegetable burger patty, mustard, 1/2 slice 2 % cheese, ratatouille, orange juice

9 p.m. (Light Snack): 1/2 cup 1% milk, granola

tweaking the meal plan

April 29, 2009

I’m starting to think I have too many sugars in my current meal plan selections (milk, yogurt, fruit).¬† My goal for the next seven days, including today, is to increase my vegetable intake.¬† I have a good menu planned for today and will continue to refine it daily to lean more on vegetables and beans, and less on yogurt and fruit.¬† I’ll have yogurt in moderation and fruit as a ‘dessert’ of sorts.

Today C. emailed me panicked by a lunch meeting at a local golf course restaurant.¬† The menu is awful.¬† Fried this, pasta and sauce…glop, glop, glop!¬† I have to say I feel sad thinking about how eager I have been to eat there – the buttery toast, the large servings, the loads of toppings.¬† I’m sad because I didn’t know that even with the best offerings, I still wasn’t going to get any skinnier eating anything there.¬†

I’m not sure what’s going on with me, but the ‘eye of truth’ is actively working on me today.¬† Just like in other areas of my life, I finally see the truth.¬† For all my exercising and ‘dieting’, I’ve never just done the basics – eating whole grains, fruits, vegetables, protein, and dairy¬†in a sensible, beneficial way.¬† I also see that everything around me is poison and I’ve got to let it go – the donuts at work, the fast food/restaurant options, the ‘treat’s every day to soothe life’s stresses.¬† I will never be thin on a path that includes these things.¬† If I don’t change paths, my weight won’t change.

I’m not sure why the Fat Smash Diet is speaking to me, but it is¬†proving to be a good tool for evolving my way of eating.¬† I’m not there yet, but I see a definite path I can follow as a lifestyle in the long term.¬† Just the idea that I want to shift to more vegetables is revolutionary thinking.¬† I’m by no means ‘changed’.¬† What I am is enlightened enough to know I need to continue walking down the path I’m on, one day at a time.

day 3

April 29, 2009

8 a.m.  (Meal #1): 2 cups low fat milk, granola

11 a.m. (Meal #2, heavy snack):  raw carrots with hummus

2 p.m. (Meal #3): Punjabi Dal (curried lentils and brown rice frozen dinner), banana

5 p.m. (Meal #4, light snack): string cheese, herbal tea

7 p.m. (Meal #5): granola, 1 cup 2% milk

9 p.m. (Light Snack): seeds

24 hours in

April 28, 2009

I’m 24 hours into the Fat Smash Diet.¬† So far so good.¬† I haven’t had a moment of feeling hungry.¬† In fact, I’m starting to try to figure out how to eat less.¬† I just can’t eat all these meals and eat large portions.¬†¬†¬† I’m a little concerned about my mental ability to sustain a fruit and vegetable based diet, but day 2 is almost half done and I’m still hanging in there.¬†

One thing I clearly see is that there is a dividing line between fat and skinny.¬† On the fat side¬†are buttered rolls, pasta, chocolaty desserts, sodas,¬† and processed and fast foods.¬† On the skinny side are fruits vegetables, lean meats and dairy, whole grains, nuts, and exercise.¬† It really is that simple.¬† Skinny can eat on the fat side occasionally, but you can’t live on the fat side and hope to remain skinny.¬†

So it all comes down to a decision.¬† Do you want to live in the land of fat or the land of skinny.¬† That is my decision to make and once I’ve made it, my body will reflect it.¬† Today, as I head into 48 hours on the Fat Smash Diet, I recognize that I want to live in the land of the skinny.¬† That means I have to eat well most days and save the things that dwell in fat land for special treats….special treats that occur once a month or so, not every day or every week.

I think I’m okay with that.¬† Having Central Market as my primary source of food makes me believe I can succeed.¬† It’s not all on my shoulders.¬† The most I have to do is to prepare myself for the day ahead.¬† I can do that, especially if it means by my 35th birthday I can be 30 lbs lighter…heck, maybe even 35 lbs lighter!

I can’t wait unti next Wednesday, weigh in day.¬† Pray for me.¬† A good head start of 7-10 lbs would be so incredibly motivating.¬† Having a new life would be rejuevenating.

See you at my 5 p.m. snack!