Archive for January 2010

the mushy stuff

January 29, 2010

You have already been forewarned that this blog will have to be the place for my gushing, mushy ramblings about BF. My girlfriends can only take so much, lol, so I have to keep some of it to myself. Things like:

BF saying it didn’t feel right not talking to me last night.

BF calling me every day during the last 30 minutes of my 1 hour commute to say good morning.

Having plans to see him is the best. He doesn’t flake on anything. If he says it, it is going to be done at that day and time. I love dependability.

Ok, that’s enough for now. lol I am usually not this gushy because men usually are a big fail, but BF is so sweet (and has references, lol), that I am allowing myself to enjoy it. We both know we only know the surface of each other, but I think we are both genuinely good people and that is a good start.

last night

January 28, 2010

Last night BF and I went puzzle shopping. I don’t know if I’ve mentioned it, but we have this ever growing list of things we want to do together and doing a puzzle is one of them. The list is wacky, funny, and a placeholder for everything from seeing the latest movie to going to the bowling museum. I love our wackiness together.

After finding a puzzle (which was harder than you’d think), we headed back to my place under our reinforced, not doing it rules. We ate dinner, watched a little t.v. then prepared to say good night. Saying good night lasted all of two seconds before we were all over each other, lol. BUT we stuck to our plans, barely, lol, but it was easier because I think we both know what’s at stake.

Last night was insightful for me. He is really ‘gone’. I was feeling a little uncertain because I’ve never had a man be this sure with me before, especially when he wasn’t getting any, lol, but BF is 110%. It’s like he can’t help himself and is scared to death that I will hurt him because it makes him so vulnerable.

This could be my girl interpretation, but even his friends say he is completely a lost cause when it comes to me. One of our mutual friends said we act like we are an e-har.mony commercial, lol. All I know is that I feel like one, ha ha.

He isn’t perfect, but he is an amazing man. He’s all the things he is supposed to be and then some. Last night he kissed me in such a sweet way that I felt like love was in every second….not passion, love. I haven’t had one of those in ever…if ever.

We still haven’t scratched the surface of knowing each other, but the insight I’ve had is amazing. I hope he sees how much I like and care about him. I am clear that we’ve only known each other since mid-December, but as he always says, I’ve had enough experience to know when I’ve come across a good thing.

revisiting the past

January 27, 2010

I was reading through some of my old posts on relationships and was reminded of some things:

1. A man should give 110% of his time to you. Period. If he doesn’t, he isn’t interested.

2. A man has to stick around a minimum of 6 months and a day for it to be real. I’ve always said this in my head, but I’m writing it down for posterity.

3. A man spends his money where he’s invested his interest.

4. S.x should never happen until after marriage. In the words of a wise man…what’s to look forward to after that happens? We joke and say more s.x, but his question speaks volumes.

5. Keep all but your closest friends out of your relationship. Hold tight and fast to the rule of not discussing your ups and downs with random friends…even if you think they are good friends. Keep that list small.

6. If somebody hurts you, it’s ok to be done with them forever. There are lots of people in the world. Neither of you has to be friends or connected in any way. You’ll still be a good person. You’ll just be a person without b.s. people in your life.

Just thoughts.

will you be?

January 27, 2010

I have to say it here so I don’t make my girlfriends nauseous. Jay is such a sweetheart. I wish I could fully express that little ball of deliciousness that I feel in my chest when I think of him, but I’m not sure there are enough words.

I’ve been on a slow path to allowing myself to be excited about him, after all, no one is perfect and I haven’t been in long enough to have discovered all the imperfections; but I’m not sure if I can contain myself for much longer.

*side note* I need to find a new nickname for Jay. That’s his Dad’s nickname and I’d hate to slip up and call him that, lol. Hmm, what should it be? How about my BF (boyfriend)? I haven’t been able to type that in years, lol. Did I mention that he asked me to be his girlfriend on Sunday? 🙂

day zero (practice day 2)

January 27, 2010

8 a.m. (Meal #1): breakfast burrito with sausage and egg, orange juice, coffee

11 a.m. (Meal #2, heavy snack): apple

2 p.m. (Meal #3): grilled chicken sandwich, artichoke, mozzerella

5 p.m. (Meal #4, light snack): dates

7 p.m. (Meal #5): tortilla chips, cheese, chicken soft taco, sprite

9 p.m. (Meal #6, light snack):

Weight: 220.0 (minus 5 lbs)

hair envy

January 26, 2010

Halle Berry

miserable!

January 26, 2010

The shock of being back at work with too many things on my plate is making me feel miserable.  My face is breaking out and I’m exhausted…and it’s only day 2.

I didn’t take my meds on schedule while on vacation and I am really feeling it.  I’ve got to get back to taking my thy.roid meds and Vita.min D on schedule.  I can’t forget that my body can’t handle being off schedule with meds or sleep.

I can’t wait to get home so I can pass out.